Time wasted responsibly with my good friend Kace.
I have had some time to grieve saying goodbye to an important part of my life, but all my tears inevitably turned to laughter as I remembered moments of the last 6 years. I am a better person because of each person I worked with; everyone brought their A game with whatever skill set they offered. There was no position too small because the heart they offered was great.
We are messy. You know what made Rookie Blue different? That each person was so unique, and we cared enough to fight for the best in each other. The connection you saw on screen began off camera. Many days I didn’t feel that I had what it took. Guess who got me through? My teammates that became much more than that. They challenged me, all of them, through different ways because of their strengths and weaknesses. Let me tell you something, the best gift I have ever been given, is that of a real person. Is it easy? No, sometimes it was excruciating to be sitting across someone I didn’t understand, or agree with. Sometimes I didn’t have the tools to deal with what we presented each other, and that can be humiliating. But we chose to be family. And family can only be close with authenticity.
Many fans ask me what I love about working with each person… I have decided to tell you. I am going to keep this list to the Rookies and my original TO’s, Oliver and Swarek – or this will turn into a novel and I don’t have a book deal.
Greg is very much himself and also a mystery; he belongs to himself which is inspiring. He is one of the most non judgmental people I have ever met, and when I sit around a table with his friends I have to laugh because no one is alike. He is as professional as they come, which tempted me to always go the other way. He is inclusive and always sees the best in people.
Enuka knows what she wants, and has taught me that it is okay to really go after it. Sometimes we can make ourselves small to “fit in” and it is such a disservice to everyone including ourselves. She makes things happen; she is a pioneer. She is not in your face about it, she works hard, quietly, and let’s her work speak for itself. I admire her so much for this.
Gracious. I have never met a woman who can be fierce and yet just as gentle. She has a very humble spirit and truly carries herself well. She is weird and playful but when you get down to it, all heart. She has walked with me in some of my toughest moments, and I never felt shame, only ever acceptance.
This man will call you on your crap. Haha!
He can do that because he knows who he is, so it is delivered with a great deal of thought and kindness. He is genuinely interested in those he interacts with and he taught me that it’s okay to stand out and be who I am.
He is a champion. The best kind. I can’t tell you how many times I would be down on myself and he would quickly correct my thinking to remind me who he sees. He is truly my Oliver Shaw, and I have been able to have the strength to climb out of some pretty dark places because his hand was always waiting to pull me out. Sometimes, he would just climb in with me, and we would climb out together when I was ready. He is at the top because he champions everyone else to get there.
Travis will always make you feel welcome and comfortable, his strength is to connect on some level and HE’LL FIND IT. He taught me that it’s okay not to take everything so seriously, that keeping it light is healthy too. He is always down to have fun and his optimism is contagious.
Full. This woman explodes with personality and is as loyal as they come. Her ability to see the future as exciting and grab every opportunity is… The complete opposite of me. Haha. But she has taught me to see things her way, and it has only brightened my life. She is a caretaker and provider, and making others feel at home is her gift. So when you’re around her, you’re home.
Ben might be my greatest opposite to a certain degree, and for that I’m thankful. We both share the wonderful disease of perfectionism but he has created some of the finest moments from his. The details. Ben has an incredible ability to see the smallest details and it all matters. He is attentive, thoughtful and passionate. He has taught me that even if we have a different point of view, or process, we can still connect and grow. How powerful! His light brought some of my weaknesses in view, and his very person, his unique ways, forced me to step up and be a better version of myself. Acting is not performing, it’s relating.
I will tell you, without the leadership of Tassie Cameron, Ilana Frank, David Wellington, and the dedication of every talented writer this would not have happened. They brought their full selves to this project, and we were given the room to fail, fight and learn. There is no perfect way, it doesn’t exist. What does, is the journey that NEVER takes a straight line, and with each person that we encounter, an opportunity to learn and grow. My experience on Rookie has helped mold me into who I am today.
Thank you to the fans for your commitment and loyalty. Your heartfelt love and sometimes rage (haha!) for our show is what kept us moving and provided the opportunity for us to work together for so long. Without you, there is no “us”. I LOVED playing McNally, believe me when I say we shared the same heart.
Thank you to Shaw, Global, eOne and ABC for your belief in our cast and crew and investment for many years. What a gift.
I will always look back on the last six years with a warm heart and a huge smile. It was a win through and through.